Oh you make me smile : )

You're better than the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

I hope for a day where all of us can smile and to all the shits things that happen to us will be rub off our minds and nothing bad will ever happen to us anymore!! This is when we all could live happily and without fights, anger nor feeling disbelieved!! Today I just failed my "Mathematics and Algorithms" paper.. Blame it for myself on not focusing in the class and skipping this class for quite some time. I just found that me myself is a person who does things based on my mood swing. If it's happy then I will make everyone happy but if I am not in the mood, I wont care what others think of me. I will need to get rid of this as well because it doesn't help in succeeding myself in the future.

But one thing good about myself is that I wont let mood swing distract on my workload.. Luckily!! Anyway, this is a song by Uncle Kracker - Smile.. A very nice song indeed!! Wishing that everyone lives with a smile everyday :)

Preparing for my exam!!

I am doing another last minute preparation for all my exams again!! I just don't know why but I couldn't find the interest to study anymore.. but I'm hanging in there because I know this is important to me.. tho I know certificate is not everything but I really don't wanna waste my past 5 years!! I still do study but it just wasn't as powerful as the college time.. Wondering why.. But I just don't know why!! Anyway, cool as it may seem.. flunk as it may be.. just wish for the best outcome for tomorrow till 20th final exam.. and we may all enjoy the days ahead!! Please words get into my brain thank you and just stay there till I finish the particular paper!! :)

We made peace already.. I think it was the best option for both of us.. Now all I need to do is try to keep my cool and just be who I am without her.. applying both person I am when with her as well as applying the person I am when without her.. In between, I could find the best outcome for both of us especially for myself!! Everything will never be the same again.. It wont be.. because I think after all of these happens.. it made me understand even more and made me grew!!

It was tough but I made it through!!

It was a total headache!!

Woke up early this morning and found out that it rains again.. I hate raining out of sudden because of the thunderstorm that wakes me up when I have my sweetest dreams.. WAhaha, anyway.. to you people out there.. Let's partay tonight!! Poppy or anything would do but I just don't want to stay at home.. Makes me wanna go oh oh oh.. *heart stops*

It was the best feelings I ever had yesterday.. the first feeling of being abandoned by a bunch of friends which I thought would at least inform me but end up didn't.. Lol, I just don't know why I had this weird feelings that I would know you guys went out and didn't inform me.. I just know!! In fact, I don't feel anything.. not even a pinch.. perhaps Teoh Wei is right, I successfully run out from the fact/truth!! Lol, I just feel weird why no one call me or inform me.. but I think it's myself who ask you all not to call me anymore eh for whichever this kinda outing? hahaha, I am gonna live with that!!

This is what I am good in, get out of disaster b4 it happen and not turning my back until some miracles happens!! Recently been really close to Clarice which I myself not sure whether this is right.. Me and Clarice did talk before about this and I was wondering if it will ruin anyone's day? But she told me this.. I am sorry that if it's because of me that this happens but I cant do anything.. It makes me think.. then I told her this.. It's okay that I lost few people who doesn't appreciate my existence because I could live with that!! People who are dear to me I know who they are.. and those that gives me good returns I dear them most!! I am a person who are very calculative and I am a person who knows the balance in between limitation!! Thus, I don't give a dame too.. We didn't do anything wrong.. why must we because of people then we lose our friendship?

Lol, though this is just our speculation but look at this.. we don't really care!! hAhaha, just like how we are always!! *Ciken friendship*

I still love all of you tho.. Just always question yourself this.. "What is he/her to you?" then you will get your answers from there!! Cheers everyone.. with love :)

Anyway, this is just a random post.. If you think you are right, you could just leave a comment on this post then I will answer your post or perhaps.. I will just delete this post!! But if you think you are wrong.. then you should question yourself this.. "What am I to you?"

I want you to read this..

I really don't know what I should do.. Really!! You keeping telling everyone outside that I don't forgive you just because you did something wrong just once.. but you don't understand the whole context.. I forgived you for what you have done or said to me on that sweet Friday, four weeks ago. I no longer angry at you nor I dislike you. I still like you and I promised you this before that I will be there for you whenever you needed me.. But you didn't text nor call me, thus, I think you are having a great life out there.. there's no need the existence of me..

I hate you for what you don't understands, things you will never change because of your personality, things that you will never learn and I am really tired to tell you this and that but you are always angry at me whenever I show something wrong about you and yet, you will never put down you ego just once by saying yes, I admit I am wrong.. you always try to make the whole thing like I am wrong and after a while only you feel that you are wrong but that was already too late.. you make me feel bad already for telling what you did wrong, and we always quarrel because of these.. it's making me feeling really sick..

You egoness and the fact that you will never take a hint that you are wrong.. the fact that you will never lose.. everything just like me.. I know you because I could understand what you are.. but I always try to make you feel home and always let you win whenever we quarrel.. that you still not enough.. trying to win every round.. and sometimes I feel really tired of letting you win all the time.. really.. tired! All I am asking, is for you to text or call me one sweet day telling that you are SORRY for whatever you have done to me and that you are really sincere about it.. I told you b4 that I will be there for you whenever you need me.. I opt to keep that promise!!!

You wanna be sincere that you are really SORRY, you have to show your sincerity. What I want is simple, do something that makes me happy! It's all I am asking but I guess, I am not that important anyway.. but that's what I did to show to you that you exist in my life and that I appreciates you.. I wont be the one to say Sorry to you because I didn't do anything wrong nor you did anything wrong this time..

I told you very clearly.. I forgived you for what you've done or said that day on that sweet Friday 4 weeks ago.. but this time, I don't want anymore it's because I cant find the balance in between friend and the fact that I did "like" you.. I cant cheat myself about this.. I find it really hard to find the balance and that we always quarrel because of me make me feel more sick of myself.. This is the fact.. I never did flirt with you nor doing anything to make you like me.. I DIDN'T!!

All I did was purely best friend.. just as simple as that!! believe it cause it's the fact! I wont take any step towards you on this and that you can trust me because I know since the 1st week when we entered the same college, I knew you wont give me a chance or consideration and I don't know why and I don't want to know why! This is where the problem came out.. I find it really hard to accept this and I rather get out of this before I went deeper.. I fear I cant get out of this and it will hurt me.. I am someone who is not a fan to be hurt and I will do anything just not to be hurt!!

Do you know how bad I feel when you show that you are disappointed to me or you are angry of me? I cant find the balance in between friend and the fact that I like you make me feel very hard to move on!! Trust me, it ain't easy for me to make this decision.. You and I know why I said so!! Others don't understand me I don't care.. but you don't understands me.. then it must be a joke!

I FORGIVED YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME!!
I PROMISE I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED ME!!
I GOT OVER YOU ALREADY BUT I STILL FEAR SAME THING WILL HAPPEN AGAIN!!
I DON'T WANT IT TO HAPPEN AGAIN!!

SORRY!! I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AS FRIEND!! :)

NIGHT everyone..

I've found my new life..

Wow, last few days rock the whole body of mine to the max!! I did everything Brandon supposed to do.. Enjoyed the life to the fullest! Saturday went Poppy like again? Lol, this time all guys!! wahahha, but met few friends there and met a hot sexy girl over there.. Couldn't describe how pretty she is but she is just amazing! Enjoyed by just chatting over there talking, flirting and whatever shit I wanted to do.. Oh goodness me, I just love the feeling of flirting suddenly! This is what I will do now.. but having mean flirt does not mean those ugly flirt but those that will make everyone happy to know me that's all :)

Went watching movie with a gang of 9 people on Monday night for a movie title called Law Abiding Citizen.. It was nice actually but today which is November the 10th, the movie that 5 of us watched was so much more GREAT! I freaked out, scared, chicken shit, LAUGHED my arse off for the movie called Phobia 2! I LOL and LOL and LOL on the last scene.. You guys shud go catch the movie because this is just a very well written movie which includes all the elements that a movie should have! Funny, scary, silly, dumb, you name it and you have it! hahaha

Everyone told me, Brandon you blog sucks to maximum! Lol, yeah cause it's with words all the way.. but it's who I am.. I don't take pictures, thus, you guys wont see much pictures anyway! haha, I got pictures also I wont post la.. let you all see my endao face mer? diu! wakakaka ciken y0u lo :)

Just finish all my presentation and assignments! Finally.. but exam coming in a week! 1 WEEK to prepare for 4 subjects!! Sigh, better starts now.. I dedicate a song to everyone that I loves.. Name of the song title is "Unchained Melody by Gareth Gates" love you guys always :)

~Studying~

Oh My Love.. My Darling.. I've Hungered for Your Touch..
A long lonely time.. and time goes by so slowly..
and time can do so much.. Are You Still Mine?????????
I need your Love.. I....Oh I need your Love.. God Speed your Love to me??
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea, to the open arms of the sea..
Lonely rivers Sigh wait for me, wait for me..
I will be coming home.. Wait for me..

Oh my Love.. My Darling.. I've Hungered.. Hungered for Your Touch..
I really feel lonely at times.. Lonely that sometimes I just don't feel like living in Malaysia anymore.. but I gotta stay strong for the sake of myself! Study.. Don't wanna think so much anymore.. See ya everyone.. Love you guys :P

1st time inside the Club just for an hour...

Gosh, reach club around 1230am yesterday and went out of club at 145am.. but still have fun lol.. looking forward to the next outing of some other thing rather than just keep clubbing = =''' anyway, thanks for meeting me up.. but I know your friends are there that's y I don't want you to stay too long.. next time just us then ask your friends to buzz off.. wahahhaha, kidding la.. I wanna cheong k.. Sing sing song.. but anyone who coming with me.. must prepare to hear some bad singing.. Kakkakaka..

Yesterday done something really silly lol.. I pass the car to Thomas to drive and I rush to a nearby Hotel toilet.. When I came out, Thomas was the 1st car on the traffic light.. and when I go near the car it turn GREEN!! WAHAHAH, crazyyyyyy.. and I need to RUN across the other ROAD! WAH LAO EH.. TRAFFIC COMING FROM 4 WAYS WEI!! but lucky is traffic light la.. STILL CRAZY YOU KNOW? wahhaha

Sometimes, really don't understand what others are thinking.. it keep making us guessing and when it becomes a frequent.. it's really tiring.. Hopefully one day.. everyone will stop being a LIAR and tell the truth! It was actually ok at 1st.. but as the days past.. I found more and more things that its been hidden from me.. WHY? I don't get it.. WE ARE JUST FRENS but why must you hide so many things from me when everyone else knew? = =''' I asked and you still lie.. I asked and you still can tell me a lie.. I asked and you hide everything from me.. What's your intention? LIAR ITS UR MIDDLE NAME!

Cheong K with a bunch of crazy ppl..

Gosh, I thought I would never do this as in going Cheong K with just 4 of us but I did and it was a blast! I sang more than 10 songs.. but it was all not good as always :P.. Clarice sang awesomely especially her main song of "My heart will go on" by Celine Dion.. She blasted the song like no one else was there.. hahaha, but I heard it for the 2nd time already.. still.. I am amazed by her voice in singing this song! Looking forward to the next Cheong K but this time let's bring more people (who don't really sings but just there to have fun) hahaha, SO I can sing more songs la = =''' I always prefer band than single because I don't know why.. I just love band so much! maybe I love the way they sing.. it amazed me with the friendship they share and the bond they have! I have three groups of this kinda friendship and I want to hold on to them.. LETS start the party Brandon!! :)

Last few weeks was really tiring.. trying to finish up 3 assignments and it's killing me.. Finally, pass up two assignments already.. and now the last one which is C++! Hopefully I can finish it on time.. tomorrow which is Saturday.. their plan was to go Poppy.. I not sure whether I can go or not but Yumi is going.. so I really don't know whether I wanna do homework or go there have fun while getting to see her for a moment! LOL, not in love with her alright!! just friends but I like to get along with her just because we had a lot in common (for topics)!

Lately, it was all about what I want for myself rather than what I want for others. I've been kind for too long and I lost too many things in the process.. not about money but about all the things I've been missing especially the world. I made myself stuck in a small world while I could see the world in a bigger perspective but well, I can start from this moment.. anyway, its not too late either.. hahaha, rightly so.. sometimes I still wondering how is she doing but I know this was all going to wipe away from my mind after some time.. I am just waiting for the time to come! I get over it already.. but you know, the memories and the things we've gone thru will always be there.. so I will always wonder how is she doing.. that's all from me and nothing more.. hahaha!!

People told me that you are too easy to predict and that I showed too much but I am wondering does anybody knows exactly who I am? and if I want to get a person, I wouldn't even tell anyone about who I love = =''' I would just go by myself without letting anyone know.. I said because I don't want but I just couldn't get over it (on anyone that I said out).. Lol, it's not because I want to get them.. NO!! I wouldn't tell anyone who I like if I really want to tackle the person because if anyone knew who I love then of cause the particular person will know! I ain't that stupid to let others have a chance to backstab me :)

If people are so easy to predict then what's the meaning of life again? Life is always full with surprises and miracles, thus, we have to make surprises for others to see only they will be amazed by you! Someday I will post something with pictures cause I see my blog kinda lame with all words.. hahaha, one day alright? but, I am not camwhore so I wouldn't have much pictures.. (cause I look ugly larh that's y don't want to take pictures) Lol, anyway.. gotta sleep now! Good night and take care guys :)