I've found my new life..

Wow, last few days rock the whole body of mine to the max!! I did everything Brandon supposed to do.. Enjoyed the life to the fullest! Saturday went Poppy like again? Lol, this time all guys!! wahahha, but met few friends there and met a hot sexy girl over there.. Couldn't describe how pretty she is but she is just amazing! Enjoyed by just chatting over there talking, flirting and whatever shit I wanted to do.. Oh goodness me, I just love the feeling of flirting suddenly! This is what I will do now.. but having mean flirt does not mean those ugly flirt but those that will make everyone happy to know me that's all :)

Went watching movie with a gang of 9 people on Monday night for a movie title called Law Abiding Citizen.. It was nice actually but today which is November the 10th, the movie that 5 of us watched was so much more GREAT! I freaked out, scared, chicken shit, LAUGHED my arse off for the movie called Phobia 2! I LOL and LOL and LOL on the last scene.. You guys shud go catch the movie because this is just a very well written movie which includes all the elements that a movie should have! Funny, scary, silly, dumb, you name it and you have it! hahaha

Everyone told me, Brandon you blog sucks to maximum! Lol, yeah cause it's with words all the way.. but it's who I am.. I don't take pictures, thus, you guys wont see much pictures anyway! haha, I got pictures also I wont post la.. let you all see my endao face mer? diu! wakakaka ciken y0u lo :)

Just finish all my presentation and assignments! Finally.. but exam coming in a week! 1 WEEK to prepare for 4 subjects!! Sigh, better starts now.. I dedicate a song to everyone that I loves.. Name of the song title is "Unchained Melody by Gareth Gates" love you guys always :)

~Studying~

Oh My Love.. My Darling.. I've Hungered for Your Touch..
A long lonely time.. and time goes by so slowly..
and time can do so much.. Are You Still Mine?????????
I need your Love.. I....Oh I need your Love.. God Speed your Love to me??
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea, to the open arms of the sea..
Lonely rivers Sigh wait for me, wait for me..
I will be coming home.. Wait for me..

Oh my Love.. My Darling.. I've Hungered.. Hungered for Your Touch..
I really feel lonely at times.. Lonely that sometimes I just don't feel like living in Malaysia anymore.. but I gotta stay strong for the sake of myself! Study.. Don't wanna think so much anymore.. See ya everyone.. Love you guys :P

1st time inside the Club just for an hour...

Gosh, reach club around 1230am yesterday and went out of club at 145am.. but still have fun lol.. looking forward to the next outing of some other thing rather than just keep clubbing = =''' anyway, thanks for meeting me up.. but I know your friends are there that's y I don't want you to stay too long.. next time just us then ask your friends to buzz off.. wahahhaha, kidding la.. I wanna cheong k.. Sing sing song.. but anyone who coming with me.. must prepare to hear some bad singing.. Kakkakaka..

Yesterday done something really silly lol.. I pass the car to Thomas to drive and I rush to a nearby Hotel toilet.. When I came out, Thomas was the 1st car on the traffic light.. and when I go near the car it turn GREEN!! WAHAHAH, crazyyyyyy.. and I need to RUN across the other ROAD! WAH LAO EH.. TRAFFIC COMING FROM 4 WAYS WEI!! but lucky is traffic light la.. STILL CRAZY YOU KNOW? wahhaha

Sometimes, really don't understand what others are thinking.. it keep making us guessing and when it becomes a frequent.. it's really tiring.. Hopefully one day.. everyone will stop being a LIAR and tell the truth! It was actually ok at 1st.. but as the days past.. I found more and more things that its been hidden from me.. WHY? I don't get it.. WE ARE JUST FRENS but why must you hide so many things from me when everyone else knew? = =''' I asked and you still lie.. I asked and you still can tell me a lie.. I asked and you hide everything from me.. What's your intention? LIAR ITS UR MIDDLE NAME!

Cheong K with a bunch of crazy ppl..

Gosh, I thought I would never do this as in going Cheong K with just 4 of us but I did and it was a blast! I sang more than 10 songs.. but it was all not good as always :P.. Clarice sang awesomely especially her main song of "My heart will go on" by Celine Dion.. She blasted the song like no one else was there.. hahaha, but I heard it for the 2nd time already.. still.. I am amazed by her voice in singing this song! Looking forward to the next Cheong K but this time let's bring more people (who don't really sings but just there to have fun) hahaha, SO I can sing more songs la = =''' I always prefer band than single because I don't know why.. I just love band so much! maybe I love the way they sing.. it amazed me with the friendship they share and the bond they have! I have three groups of this kinda friendship and I want to hold on to them.. LETS start the party Brandon!! :)

Last few weeks was really tiring.. trying to finish up 3 assignments and it's killing me.. Finally, pass up two assignments already.. and now the last one which is C++! Hopefully I can finish it on time.. tomorrow which is Saturday.. their plan was to go Poppy.. I not sure whether I can go or not but Yumi is going.. so I really don't know whether I wanna do homework or go there have fun while getting to see her for a moment! LOL, not in love with her alright!! just friends but I like to get along with her just because we had a lot in common (for topics)!

Lately, it was all about what I want for myself rather than what I want for others. I've been kind for too long and I lost too many things in the process.. not about money but about all the things I've been missing especially the world. I made myself stuck in a small world while I could see the world in a bigger perspective but well, I can start from this moment.. anyway, its not too late either.. hahaha, rightly so.. sometimes I still wondering how is she doing but I know this was all going to wipe away from my mind after some time.. I am just waiting for the time to come! I get over it already.. but you know, the memories and the things we've gone thru will always be there.. so I will always wonder how is she doing.. that's all from me and nothing more.. hahaha!!

People told me that you are too easy to predict and that I showed too much but I am wondering does anybody knows exactly who I am? and if I want to get a person, I wouldn't even tell anyone about who I love = =''' I would just go by myself without letting anyone know.. I said because I don't want but I just couldn't get over it (on anyone that I said out).. Lol, it's not because I want to get them.. NO!! I wouldn't tell anyone who I like if I really want to tackle the person because if anyone knew who I love then of cause the particular person will know! I ain't that stupid to let others have a chance to backstab me :)

If people are so easy to predict then what's the meaning of life again? Life is always full with surprises and miracles, thus, we have to make surprises for others to see only they will be amazed by you! Someday I will post something with pictures cause I see my blog kinda lame with all words.. hahaha, one day alright? but, I am not camwhore so I wouldn't have much pictures.. (cause I look ugly larh that's y don't want to take pictures) Lol, anyway.. gotta sleep now! Good night and take care guys :)

Hoegarden and Stellar beer @ Library

What a day!! Woke up at 9am which is late for my 1st class and I rush myself to reach college on time for the 2nd class but of cause, showering was so long that took me 1 hour and I drive like a normal people rushing type of driving :) Finally, I reach there at 11am.. hahaha, but it's ok because I just late for an hour for Math class which I don't even know anything about it. Dame, I am gonna flunk this time! Aiks.. cross fingers*

After all the classes ends at 5pm, I called PengLoon because we were supposed to go Marvin house for open house and that he invited everyone of us. So this how the conversations between us went:

Brandon: Eh, I come your house shower before go Marvin house can bo?
PengLoon: Huh? But I am going Library later wo..

Brandon: What? You go study at Library or drinking at Library@Curve * *
PengLoon: Go yum zhao with Sherry and Steven la.. ok la, you come my house shower then we go together to curve lore??

Brandon: Humble* I tak kenal they all also later go there do what wo?
PengLoon: Nvm, they all you see before few times already what.. they very frenly one..

Brandon: Er, OKLA *Happy nia can go Library*.. You wait for me at your house I come from APIIT now and I need shower 1st.
Pengloon: OK, Take your time.

Brandon hung up the call...... After 20 minutes...... call him again....

Brandon: Eh, jam la here.. no point going to your house d.. you come to Curve now la! I wait you there.
PengLoon: Nvm la, you slowly come my house take shower 1st.. then we go together la..

Brandon: Er, dont want la.. very jam le..
PengLoon: *Brother always*.. Okla, I come over now! cya..
Brandon: Ok, I wait you at curve then.

So I waited and waited while going shopping for a moment.. buying present for Yumi but I walked for half an hour I cant find a pretty handbag.. Last time I saw at KL Pavilion wanted to buy for her, but dunno she likes a not.. thus, wanna bring her go shopping and bring her choose cause I dunno what to buy.. fear that later buy d she don't like ma zham.. but she cant find a day to go out shopping with me because of her busy schedule and working days. Nvm, I will get something else more meaningful one..... Hahaha! Remember my Christmas present hor, need to exchange gift ok! :)

Finally, PengLoon reached but he told me he was at Cineleisure which was taken over by Curve = =''' I need to walk all the way to the other side.. nvm, I not angry but very tired to walk all the way there.. So I walk while shopping by myself.. hahaha, see whether got things to buy for her or not.. but, curve have too little choices!! Next day ok? hahaha

Well, went in to Library.. the 1st impression was like.. WOW? Got POOL table upstairs.. but no one was there.. so don't dare to go up.. went around find for PengLoon.. they sat outside.. then I saw Nicole, which I cant really recall where I met her already.. all I know is Nicole was not in the same table with us, she went with her fren.. hahaha, but she remember me still la.. but I dame stupiak! I just say hie then don't care d.. Lol!!

Finally, 3 pine of Stellar and 3 pine of Hoegarden!! WooHOo!! Free another 3pine of Stellar and 3 pine of Hoegarden. SO end of the day, the table was full with 12 BEERS which has 6 Stellar beer and 6 Hoegarden. Of cause I tasted the Hoegarden which I wanted to try long time ago.. WOW!! It was nice.. amazing.. but when I try Stellar, I love Stellar so much but I drank Hoegarden 1st.. Stellar wait for next trip. Hahaha, I got adrenalin rush after just 1 pine. Stupid nia me.. PengLoon and Steven drank 3 and half pine each but they are still ok! No wonder their tummy so big.. kakakka, I must train also.. because PengLoon wanna make his birthday party at Library.. Cant wait..!! hehehe

After that around 8pm, walk to my car at Curve then went to Marvin house. Quickly grab some foods as I am so exhausted and hungry and fill my stomach up with the delicious cooking of Marvin's mother. Aunty, forgot to tell you that thanks a lot for the delicious dinner. Hahaha, went playing gamble at his place for a moment then I lost RM1. Bodoh betul, while we are playing Marvin and PengLoon brought in birthday cake of PeiSee because it's her birthday today on 29th of October 2009. Sadly, I don't like cake that much so I don't want to eat. A moment later, I go back already because got assignment to do.. Sad :( but I had a blast today.. hahaha, Cheers everyone :) HOEGARDEN and STELLAR 20Pines PLS!! KAkakkaa! @LIBRARY (Curve)

Finally I am done cleaning those unnecessary!

Yeap, after a whole day wondering what should I do.. I did what everyone think I am not strong to. The more I hate her the more things I found out, it just came to me like that.

What is the reason that you always lie to me?

There are so many things that is PNC which I shouldn't be telling but why did you lie to me? WHY? I will never wanna find out because you will never tell the truth to me. Whatever you say was just bull+shit!

I clean everything up today including my room to be as tidy as possible as the sign to start a new day. Changed my msn, re-open facebook but deleted some unnecessary, re-open this blog to share my thoughts with people, changing my handphone number real soon and everything that matters I throw it away deep inside my heart! I felt marvelous.. I've been putting you as my priority that I neglected so many great people around me! I should find a time to patch things up! hahaha, now it's just me and myself.. doing everything I want and doesn't need to care about what anyone going to think about me! I am strong to stay this long but I am stronger now to leave you!

Last two days went outing and we went to Sushi Zanmai. Had a blast there and I am not rushing everything this time around. Hahaha, if it's mine it's mine.. if not then Aussie find an Aussie chix la! kakakaka

I barely can believed that she blocked me!

I figured that this is coming.. She practically blocked me on her msn = =''' Hahaha, well.. it's weird that I don't feel anything.. I just don't know why perhaps it's because I am already used up all my strength to a person that finally, when I cant bare the burden anymore.. I threw it aside and I am finish with it! What hurts the most is when you know you might make this person the love of your life but that person wouldn't want to give it a try because of fear. She couldn't deny that she had locked me out since the first day we met or to make it worst, even before we met each other :(

I gotta be strong and I've been strong. I gave her time to change her thinking towards me and it's been 5 years knowing each other but it is not enough to prove what I am worth and that I am no longer the same person she think I am before we met. But well, life is just sucks because knowing you have found the love of your life but you couldn't get her and fearing if getting back as friend would make myself going deeper to her and I need to stop this from happening.

Why would I say this is based on what you said to me and that I told you I know you better than anyone else and it's not a fluke from my point of view. I don't say things without prove and I seriously don't know why you wanna block me out from letting me into you but Hey, I don't CARE anymore! = =''' I ain't trying to say anyone is good to replace you, but I really fear that if I continue getting close to you, I only can find myself getting nowhere! because I wont ask you at 1st place because of fear, I wont dare to try, I wont dare to lie to myself that I don't love you if we are continue being fren. I scare I cant get out later because I know how deep I am in love with you.

I know you wont understands what I've gone through because you are not me. But all I can do is this, I hope you let me go since you told me you will never give me a chance!

May GOD bless every move you made, every decision you made, healthy always. every love you have, everything you are finding for and lastly, may you forgive me! I am really truly in fear that I will fall for you even deeper if I continue getting close to you. I don't want to waste my time on someone who never gave me a chance to prove myself. I hope you understands. Take care.

I really love you, like every thing in this world meant to me. I don't know how to explain but this was different from everything else. But all I could do now is talking to myself, yearning for a better one to come into my life! and I know this will take time but I will wait with patience. Is this the penalties that I have to pay for having puppy love during my secondary school life and if yeah, YOU have thrown a hectic punishment to me. I learned my lesson, I know what have I done wrong, and I change myself DIDNT I? I am sorry to anyone that I've hurt your feelings. Really sorry, sincerely sorry.

Cheryl, I will never forgive you for what you have done.. for blocking me! I can't believe that you did that.. Like really! You are sucha arrogant person.. I wanted to say this LONG LONG time ago but I cant because you are my best friend. But since you hurt me so much after this, I will only say what's real! You are arrogant person that Don't even know what's WRONG with yourself and YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOUR MIND IS THINKING!

A WORD FROM ME: SORT YOUR MIND OUT HARLOO!! DETAIL OUT YOUR MIND AND FIND IT DEEPER.. YOU HADN't KNOW A SHIT ABOUT YOURSELF!

DAMMIT FOR BLOCKING ME!

Goodness I know what it's wrong with myself finally. For being a "BIG-MAN" or known in chinese as "TA NAN REN" as in like to control everything around me. Hahaha, sorry guys.. I know I am a bustard in this. I wont do that again to anyone I promise :) Everyone has their own freedom and I believe so. Yumi is the one teaches me to let go of this evil side of me. hahhaha, Cheers everyone. :)

Manchester United lost to Liverpool!! Arrrgg..

The moment I saw United losing to Liverpool, I knew Teoh Wei and gang is going to be so action to me and guess WHAT!! TEOH WEI called me after 1 minutes of finish time to show some action towards me!! hahaha, this is the price to pay to laughed on Liverpool when they lost 1 - 0 to a beach ball to SunderlanD! :)

Nevermind, we never know who is going to win still.. wait till the end of the season and we shall see who win the most title!! nahahhaa, someone (Cheryl) is going to be so action to me the next time she saw me.. yooooooooooo.. mana boleh! Viva United! anyway, it was just a match la I am not so into supporting tho cause if win win lore but if lost then what can I say rite? Cristiano Ronaldo is irreplaceable! kakakakaka

Sadly, I don't wanna put hope on anything already because HOPE always end up making me disappointed with the outcome! Sigh, I was hoping on Saturday that something will happen but I waited nothing camE! I said nevermind to myself there's still plenty of time.. Waited and waited and waited till night around 11 something, gone I know I am gonna end up disappointed and yeap, disappointment occurs yet again!

Not gonna give myself any hope on anything already.. Just going to focus on my studies and don't wanna care about anything else.. It's really the only thing I could do cause everytime I hope, I end up scratching my head LOL!! that's how bad it was..

Aiya.. Brandon WOULD YOU MIND WAKE UP? STOP DREAMING, HOPING and WONDERING! Focus on what you going to do especially your GOALS and PROCESSES and everything else doesn't matter anymore! hehe, gg.com!! Knocking my head on the wall to show how stupid I think myself is = ='''

Hehehe, I already know nothing good will come just like that! I am so stupid to believe everything is going to be different starts from now.. A brand new start but LOL! haih, cheers la everyone :) Yum Yum Zhao!!